Back To Reality

Friday I had a follow-up appointment with my nephrologist. It was quite a sobering experience. I'm not sure I fully understood how bad it had gotten when I was in the hospital. The doctor said I actually went into acute renal failure and two other major organs-my liver and heart were starting to stress as well. I mean, I knew I was in bad shape and had a pretty good idea of what was going on, but I think I just finally realized how bad it really was! I have lost 20+ lbs of fluid since leaving the hospital. It is so strange to me that I could fluctuate that much in weight so quickly. What a disease! Like I said before...minimal change? What is with that name?

We finally made it home yesterday. I am happy to be alive and at home with my family. I'm trying hard not to get too overwhelmed too quickly. My body physically won't let me overdo it (just taking a shower is so very tiring right now) but my mind is all over the place. Jason has me trained to only plan the next 12 hrs of each day and that really helps me to not get too stressed out. Jason and my mom have been amazing. They still work tirelessly to ensure my every need is met. My mom has been trying to recover from surgery herself since December and finally had to go back to work on Friday. She came out here today though and took me grocery shopping since my diet is so restricted. Most of my all time favorite meals are no good for me now, but it helps that I do like a variety of foods. Jason is so tired from commuting from work, home, hospital, kids drop-off, kids pick-up, the never-ending list of store errands, bills, dogs, etc. etc. etc. He keeps pushing through it though. Boy did I do something right when I married him.

Wesley has actually been a real trooper through all of this. He now takes a bottle with ease. He is quite a socialized little boy. When David was this age, he was already very wary of anyone new holding him. Wesley doesn't care who holds him as long as he gets some attention! David probably needs the most prayers of all of us. He is such a sensitive little boy. His security blanket was ripped out from under him this past month. Any change in schedule really affects him and there has been no regularity to his days as of late. I am hoping a little extra TLC at home will help him get back to his usual self.

I'll leave you with two pictures of the kids that were hanging up in my hospital room which were my constant motivation to get better!